Looking back then moving forward

Recently I've seen FB posts from friends who are single and lamenting about past guys and trying to describe what they're looking for and it got me reminiscing about many years ago when I participated in online dating.  It was okay, getting to kind of window shop all the photos of fairly good looking guys and wondering if they'd looked at and liked my photo. Plus wondering if I said enough to describe myself and the type of person I was looking to date and/or spend my life with.  I have to laugh since mostly I used descriptor words like short, funny, kind, honest which are all fine but at the same time really don't say much. I had some success with responses. Mostly talking on the phone or e-mailing and what I got were guys that were either successful, financially stable, had ethics at the least but jerks or nice guys that I believe meant well but lacked motivation or financial maturity or morals. A couple were borderline abusive.  Praise God I wasn't so needy as to keep that kind in my life. Or the ones who loved and wanted to marry me the minute they read my profile. Those all of a sudden wanted me to send money and be a Nigerian bride LOL. See what I'm getting at. I lacked any sort frame of reference with my own experience so all I could describe was a person with maybe style but not much substance.

Thankfully I've grown to love, respect and trust me enough to look for more. And I Quit Throwing THOUSANDS away on online dating. I thought it'd be fun to write a 2019 version of a profile of what I'm looking for. This's For Fun And Probably Missing Traits For Myself Or My Person.

For starters I'm a medium height brown haired/eyed women who doesn't drink, smoke, do drugs, no kids. I have no tattoos and kinda proud of it. I live with Spina Bifida and have overcome a lot in life. I do my best to live a healthy and active life in spite of challenges.  I'm employed yet working to establish my own wedding consulting business.  I'm honest, maybe to a fault, polite but assertively direct(you'll hardly ever have to guess where you stand with me or guess what I want.) I'm a recovering people pleaser so I've learned to balance having people in my life without being a pushover or compromise beliefs/values.  I'm a Christian and believe in Jesus as the Son of God yet have my struggles with faith and am not perfect. I do my best to do to others as I'd like done to me.  Yet I can be feisty and give as well as I get. I'll do anything possible to help others without unhealthy care taking and giving more than I have.  Should I be married, I'll be a Godly wife without being a doormat who has no thoughts, feelings hopes and dreams of her own. On a fun note, I love going out and doing... from eating out, movies, concerts, theater, dancing(no bars), accessible sports, travel.

Now Who I'm Looking For

Medium height, late 30's-50ish. He should be someone who should have a sense of taking care of himself through athletics or active lifestyle without obsessing about it. He has a good funloving/serious work/life balance. He has no tattoos or earrings. He doesn't drink, smoke or do drugs. And doesn't have kids(Should we marry, I want us to have our own). He should be employed and hopefully enjoy what he does. Please have good money management.

He should be a Christian who believes in Jesus as the Son of God. I don't want perfect but, to me, he should live his values by being humble yet quietly confident in who he is, what he's capable of in life. He should also do what he can to help others as needed yet know how to help with a hand up. He gives the benefit of the doubt without being anyone's fool. He's a leader and stands for what he believes yet can admit faults and work to correct them and improve himself. He'll be someone I can lean on and into when things get hard.  He will be someone who loves and accepts me as I am with my disability and won't be ashamed of me. He'll fight for me as needed(I'll do the same for him) and take care of me when I can't(again I'll do the same for him). He'll be a Godly husband who's kind, loving, and outgoing to all yet his heart is only for me and mine for him. He and I will encourage each other and bring out the best in each other.

Sounds to perfect you say, maybe but based on what I've seen and experienced I Do Believe He's Out There